Please don\'t make me any healthier 1/11/2009
Talk about an emotional roller coaster. Learning to deal with ones Mortality. I can still remember when I was in my 20's and 30's I was imortal, then in my 40's I developed a slight fear of things, now I'm terrified. I think facing ones mortality has to be the weirdest feelings one has to learn to deal with. I told my doctor I was the absolute worst person to have to be on Coumadin, My Gosh I am the worlds biggest KLUTZ, and I prefer eating fresh green veggies more than anything else in the world, I have been growing all these yummy green things in my garden for years, now what am I suppose to grow? Oh yea here's another thing my one doctor suggested. A filter in my artery to catch any blood clots. Ok now wait a minute, does this mean I go in every 3,000 miles for a filter and oil change. I'm starting to feel like a car. I know eventually I will learn to deal with my new condition as soon as the doctors figure out what exactly it is, they still haven't figured out where the clots keep comming from, they just miraculously appear when no one is looking. 01/11/2009I actually went to the doctor over my sore Booty. I heard a large pop in my booty when I was having play time with my dog. Anyway after an MRI I learned I have a torn disk in my lower back (Not caused from the incident) apparently when I heard that pop I tore it a little worse. No bleeding but I got an immeadiate steroid injection in the faucet of one of my lower vertabre. The faucet was pushing on a nerve causing the pain. So that issue is being taken care of.I also got a call from my primary physician to let me know they discovered 2 lumps in my right breast on my mamograham. I'll get a repeat momograham in 6 months. I'm not even going to ask what else can go wrong.In 2005 with my first PE my doctor suggested I quit smoking, He told me with a totally straight face how much healthier I would be. What a liar he was and he was able to look me in the eye and tell me this. After 14 days in the hospital I figured ok I can quit, I've gone this long without a ciggarette It shouldn't be a problem, and surprisingly it was easier than I expected. I have been smoke free for a little over 3 years now. Ok as far as the "So much healthier" ROFLMBO yea right! I now take rat poison for my blood clots, I take 2 blood pressure meds to control an otherwise extremely high blood pressure, I take thyroid meds for hypothyroidisim, I take an anti depressant because I'm going through menapause and can't take the hormone replacements and if i'm not on something I'm sure to kill my husband especially since I'm licensed to carry weapons and know how to use them and probably would. I'm on lasix because the blood pressure meds make me retain water, I'm on potassium because I pee so much from being on lasix and I loose all my potassium. I pray that I don't get any healthier! 01/12/2009What a lousy day this has been, stop this stoopid ride I want to get off. My Booty still hurts to sit, My Pharmacist filled one of my blood pressure meds wrong and gave me the wrong drugs. (good thing I noticed) I broke my glasses frames, and its starting to snow once again. Oh and I hit my stoopid knee on the gate coming in from work tonight so its sore too. (its the knee I had replaced back in June of 2008 so its still sore anyway. Dang I think I'm gonna go to bed before I hurt myself or break anything else.
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I am glad that you can have a sense of humor! What else can we do?
I saw on your discussion post that you are \"lifer.\" Me too! Welcome to the club! My neighbor just gave me bunches and bunches of homegrown turnip greens. I was sooo excited until I remembered that I was on Coumadin... Ooops! Some days I wish I were one of those people who hated green veggies.
Oh Girl me too and unfortunately I\'m a rabbit in disguise. My husband the poor guy has had health problems for the past 15 years due to side affects of a medication he was on due to a back injury and had his Gall Bladder removed. Unfortunately that left him not being able to eat foods with more than 3% fat content total, ok then add he has a diverticulitis so now no seeds, grains etc... so when I just want to talk to him and say things like ww what I miss most is my veggies, he has no real sympathy for what I\'m going through. It so frustrating not having anyone to really talk to about my fears and concerns.
My husband is a terrific guy and is scheduled for multi-level back fusion soon so he has problems of his own and as he tells me he doesn\'t want to hear my whining.. Thanks for listening I really appreciate it
Hi Ferr, may I add to this, that most people who have not dealt with DVT or PE do not really understand what is going down with us, they look at us, see that we can perform our every day jobs and living (BTW, I know all about those acronyms you are )Wilderness First Responder, Search &Rescue...) before I had my DVT I help put together a Mountain Bike Patrol, I have my First Responder (not Wilderness) that is the impressive portfolio you have.If you look at my pics there is one of me on trails, with my backpack, people always ask me why it\'s soooooo BIG... LOL (First Aid Kit, spare bike parts, GPS and LOTS of water...)
But back to the point I was making, folks who do not go through what we are/have do not understand us AT ALL. Comfort is found in forums like this where the membership comprise of people that are afflicted with this. Nobody else (even our Dr.) can understand it.
I know how you feel about facing your own mortality...it is difficult. I am only 39 and find myself thinking about it after my PEs. I often wish that I could again be like that woman that I was in my 20s that never had a health concern at all (or even how I was a couple of years ago :) But I also feel fortunate that this is the first time I\'ve had to worry about it....I\'m just amazed by the number of people (on this board and elsewhere) that have to deal with a major medical condition as teenagers or early 20s. At least I am at an age where I have a few friends that are facing various maladies/diseases (high blood pressure, breast cancer, TIA,etc.) Nice to have others to talk to that understand the fragility of life. I guess that we all know deep-down that we don\'t have forever (although it seems like it when you are so young). It has definitely made me really force myself to just think about each day....anytime the stress of the future gets to me, I do a little self-talk \"Just focus on and enjoy today\". We do have good medical care...my mom\'s side of the family is where all the blood-clotting issues come from and those women all lived well into their 90s. My grandmother took warfarin, lived in her own house, did a lot of gardening, caring for her pets, and loved her schedule of going out to eat for breakfast and stopping by a few of her favorite stores...she died a few years ago, but was independent and healthy almost to the end. Your humor is great....and your job looks really interesting and cool. I know what you mean...the not eating huge salads is kind of hard...I will eat a little, but a little Vit K seems to really affect my INR...guess I am sensitive to it. Still trying to adjust, but like you said...there are always others that have to struggle more with their health and diet than we do. Hope you are feeling great today :) Nancy
OMG Tonight I totally pigged out on homemade Lasagna, I not only don\'t know but don\'t care if it had Vitamin K in it!!!!