pity party

I shouldn't have given my husband a hard time about going to play tennis - it's just that he plays a lot (Tues, Wed, Sat, and sometimes Sunday) and he is involved in tons of other things ~ including volunteer "stuff".  He has to be on the go.  If I'm not going to a meeting ~ I'm home alone night after night (or so it seems).  Maybe it's bothering more now because I'm very worried about our middle son AND I found out (after having a mammogram) that I have to go for a biopsy.  I know that 80% of the time when calcification is found - it's benign ~ but I can't help but go down that path.  So I'm having a pity party.  In a bit I will go for a walk because it is a beautiful evening but still.  I just would prefer to be with him.  Strange, huh?