Pity Party..
So today I threw myself a pity party after another BFN test, cried screamed, and told my self that it's not meant to be. Then I came on daily strength and saw that there are women who have 2, 3,4, and even miscarriages, carried babies to 40 weeks and they passed away AND CHOSE to get back up and try it again and some have had the joy to FINALLY get their babies. I am in tears to see that REALLLY I AM. That is what gives me the strength to HOPE that one day I will get to look in my babies beautiful eyes and say that you are worth it. Some of you have been through more than I can even grasp, yet you chose to do it again. It means so much to gather hope, courage, and strength from you
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Many Hugs!!!
N.
You have to mourn every single BFN, otherwise you\'ll just be in denial. Whenever I had an IVF fail, I would allow myself 2 weeks of pity party (and longer after each one of my miscarriages). I could cry and whimper and have temper tantrums, and drown my sorrows in wine, and get all the sadness and negativity out of me. Then after two weeks I would pull myself together and make a plan for the future. But those two weeks were a necessary stage to rid myself of the negativity demons so that I could move forward on my path towards having a baby.
I am hoping and praying so much for you!
It\'s ok to have a pity party, sometimes I have one when I read a happy story. But then I remember how lucky I am to have my daughter and how much she needs me. It\'s easy to not think about what you have, when you have experienced loss or are mourning for the inability to obtain something that you know will bring you happiness. Sending you prayers that eventually you will find some comfort. Remember that everything happens in the Lord\'s time, not ours!
For everything there is a season, keep your faith strong you will need it.
I would have pity parties too, I believe they help you get all the greif out!! Take care of yourself and then plan your next move. Keeping you in my prayers Hun.