pills aren't working yet
I know I have to give them time ..I just hate this feeling ....it makes me feel like I am slipping back ...and that scares me .....been eating to much ...and gained ..some weaight ....that has to stop ....ther is somthing I am not talking about ....my h would rather I don't talk about it ....but it is starting to get to me ....not talking about it ....because ...I am not saying the hole truth when I am talking in here ...and that bothered me ....it is true but not exactualy true ....this is realy a rant ....for me ....I....am all about the truth ....so it is hard to eather omit ..or twist things ...or say things are fine when they are not .......but that is what I am doing .....I am just dowen today ....and I schouldent be ..I have a woubderful husband who is so good to me ....a great family .....I feel like I am weak ...why can't I just be happy ....get rid of this angizity .....and ..I have come to relize I do have some depreshion ..after doing so well .....there was an event that happened ...that I am not talking about but it schouldent of done this to me .......and if it did .....than .....I worry for my self if somthing realy big happens ...what is going to happen than ....well it is time to pick my self up ...put on that happy face my h is getting up ...it hurts him to see me this way ......rant over ...
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Even on here it is hard to share your deepest darkest thoughts or just something so personal that you keep to yourself. I never put some thing on here although maybe I should. I hate anxiety. I have it too. I took a new job and the person before me already left so I have no one to show me what to do. I haven't slept past 5am, usually 4am in two weeks. I have so many attacks even without the job it has been really hard so I understand. Not eating right either. I keep telling myself it will get better. Hang in there.
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So sorry you're feeling this way, depression has a way of rearing it's ugly face. I'm trying to keep busy, going to my therapy, groups & I finished my memorial for Fred. Still sad, but it's moving forward. I noticed changes in his brother, he's a bit happier, because I am. Try to keep moving forward with anything that helps, Your painting & your precious little dog! Hugs! Brooke!
thank you .....Paulinaakkl......you hang in there to .....
Thankyou ....Duckisnowon .....for the hugs ...and being there for me always .........................
Thankyou .........cedar rook ....keep moving a head and I will do the same ..
Well, I am sorry that I am not always current here but I do always try to stay intouch as much as I can.
I just want to say sweetie, that if your husband does not want you talking about personal things here...I get it. But there could not be a better place for you to share as we are always here for you. I also hold back quite often.
Have you ever thought about just writing a personal journal and not sharing it with anyone? You can write anything you want and no one will see it. I just know it will help to get everything off your chest.
thank you Carlyj .....in a few months I will be able to right about it than ..just not now ......thankyou for taking the time to read my post ...