Pile it on!
Why is it when God lets us get our hearts broken by a failed love all of the other aspects of life have to be stressful as well? Ok, here we are trying to feel worthy of love, not hate ourselves and understand why someone who was our world would have loved us so little as to stomp on us. As if that wasn't bad enough our credit and financial situation becomes crap at the same time! Breaking up a family isn't only about the lost love but lost income and increased responsibility. I work in the Mortgage Biz so add job insecurity to that. I live in a house I can't afford but can't sell because I owe more than it is worth in this special RE market we are in. Got a kid starting college with no money to cover it and an eighth grade fashion icon that costs money everytime she bats her eyes!As they say when it rains it pours! They say anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I guess if we weather the storm that is divorce. We should be stronger than steele the rest of our lives! Life is scary! I am just TIRED, very YIRED, of worry and hurt and loneliness and feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and no one has my back! The pressure is going to crush me! OK, OK I know, I AM A CHRISTIAN AND GOD WILL GET ME THROUGH THE STORM. I do believe that with all of my heart but I still have to live through this pressure that is about to take the wind out of me. I pray and pray and praise him for all he has done for me already. I just need some peace on earth, you know? I know I am not alone!
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I understand where you are coming from. Divorce - credit - in over my head with bills - one out of college thinking about dental school while undergrad goes unpaid - one in college thinking about getting a masters and a doctrate (and I might add like your 8th grader - she has to have a full room we call her dressing room to even start to house her clothes).
I am reading a book called \"Radical Recovery\" by Suzy Brown. You might benefit from it as well.
On the weight side - what are you doing to loose? Want a little friendly competition? I had thyroid issues and ballooned - then the thyroid went the other way and I dropped 60 pounds. Stepped into 8\'s and some 6\'s. Then they killed my thyroid - ballon again (just not as much). Right now I am about 20 from where I was (size 10\'s and some 12\'s) but want to loose it and more.... so...... share your secrets!!!
Also - I really think you would respond well to a visit from a buddy north of the border (the FL border) and we need to get this in the works!! At least if the invite is still there!!!!!
Hugs - love you girl!!
We are living the same life - read my posts sometime. I often wonder if I get through this what kind of person I will become, right now I don\'t like myself very much.