Physically Sick

Last night after I went to bed, I woke up in the middle of the night and I had to throw up. It hurt so much, and my throat hasn't fully healed from it yet. I did try and go to work today, but I only was there for a couple hours before I had to go home. I felt like I was going to faint. I had to put my head on my desk for a bit and settle down. I don't know what caused it. I'm just glad I didn't faint- either at work or on my way home. I shouldn't have walked home, but I didn't know Geo was still at home with the car. I thought he would be with his dad, since he was supposed to go over there today to help fix his dad's fence. Well, he's still there now. His dad didn't call until about 6:30pm, so Geo's only been over there for a couple hours. I don't know how much work they can do in the dark, since it's almost 9pm and dark here, but he might just be hanging out with his family. I didn't feel up to going, and I didn't feel strong enough to help with the fence. Not to mention that the dogs would be out, and dogs scare me. His dad has 3 large dogs who always bark at me. That's one good way to get me to shut up... sic some big dogs on me.
I've been drinking milk and stuff to try and help the acid in my stomach and throat from the barfing, but I haven't been able to fully get it out of my throat. It feels good right now since I just ate a Popsicle. The cold has been good to my throat. Not that I get much cold here... I don't really eat or drink cold things since it hurts my teeth. I have super sensitive teeth. Now my back is hurting as well, and I'm probably going to be on a heating pad until I go to sleep. I don't want to fall asleep on the heating pad... but I'm not that tired right now. I know, it's amazing... it's 9pm and I'm not tired. I think I'm getting my normal second wind already. It could also be because I took a nap earlier, but that doesn't normally mess up my night sleep.
Last night I slept okay after I barfed. It took me a while to get back to sleep since my throat was hurting so bad, but I woke up early enough to go to work. I got like 14 hours of sleep last night... I know that's a lot, but since I got out of the hospital I have a lot of missing sleep to make up. They only let you sleep for 8 hours a night.. well, you get lights out for 8 hours. I managed to get some sleep during the day since I had my bandana and I wore it over my eyes. I've just been tired. I don't know how I'm going to sleep tonight.. I hope I get a good nights sleep and I don't have to drug myself to do it. Ugh... the Popsicle is wearing off and my throat is starting to hurt again. I wish there was something better than numbing it or trying to drink milk that could cure it, but I think it's scratched. It's just going to have to heal on it's own.
Mood today was good... I didn't feel too bad, except for when I felt like I was going to faint at work. I had to leave early, but I'm glad I went in. They were glad to have me there, and didn't want me to leave. I know they like me, but I think that they are getting sick of me being sick all the time. I don't plan on this happening, but I'm on disability for a reason, you know. I get sick and I can't control and I can't go to work. Everyone at work wanted me to say I was doing great, even after I told them I just got out of the hospital. I was feeling okay, so I was telling people that. A couple of them kept asking me how I was doing... I think it's because they haven't seen me in so long. I haven't been to work since last week's Tuesday. I was in the hospital from Friday to Wednesday, so that missed my work days for this week. I just was able to make it in today.
Food today was good.. I'm almost in my calorie range. I ate a danish at work, and I thought that it would send me over the calorie range, but I didn't eat much else today. I did have a mini bagel with peanut butter and pineapple for breakfast, and teriyaki chicken stir fry for dinner, but that's about it. I get hungry while I'm at work when I do go in. I need to start bringing my own snacks again so I don't have to hit the vending machine. That would kill my diet. I weighed in today at 222.0, which is good. My goal for the next couple of months is to get down below 215 again, so then I can set the goal for 200! I'm excited about being so close to 200 pounds. I've lost a bunch of weight, and I'm trying my best to not let ED get me in it's clutches again. It's just not worth it.