Photographs & Memories

The late Jim Croce did a song called "Photographs & Memories" many years ago.  Barbara hated to have her picture taken, and I have precious few of them now that she's gone.  Looking through my disc full of family photos for some of her, I looked at countless images of my family members, most of whom are with God now.  Lord, how I wish I could roll the clock back to a time when my life was full of people who I loved and who loved me.  I was doing pretty good after befriending so many good people here at DS that I thought I could handle the process, but I am bawling my ass off once again.  I know that my feelings are valid, and I know that my emotions are nothing to be ashamed of, but I just feel so helpless at this point in time.  Never did I think that losing my bride would hurt this much, but it does, and there is nothing that I can do, except to allow for the pain to run it's course.  So bring on the pain, Lord.  For once in my life I am going to trust in you and allow you to help guide me through this.  For I cannot do this without you................