phobia check ii
the last phobia check was october 23. the paranoia is still pretty strong. between the still rumbling maskites and the still litigious sister-in-law, i am not ruling out the possibility that THEY might really be out to get me. it isn't paranoia if THEY REALLY ARE out to get me. the sister-in-law is a more or less known comodity. i still know her more by reputation than exposure, but i have a name and face to attach to the threats of litigation. the laws are on my side.
the maskites are a less known/knowable and socially distant comodity. i reckon i oughta make that, "commodities." the covidic weirds are generating from waaaaay more than one source. full faces and names unavailable, but their laws, powers of enforcement, etc are still morphing creatively. as a recovering control freak in my own right, i believe i have the authority to conclude that control freaks NEVER give up control without a fight. give us an inch and we will take a mile. in my strictly personal psycho snot knots, the best i can do is manage my control beast. it be far too stubborn an old cuss to kill.
my first phobia check showed signs of the paranoia still going. continuing my journal here still feels? ? ? too public? ? ?
works in progress. . .
maybe it's just time to stir up my writing style?
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Gentle hug Arf.... I'm sorry that you're still going through BS from the other side... They could be using this time and energy to help and be supportive.... It sux..... Another hug and a blessing... xo
for the most part, i believe the son's sister-in-law is more nuisance than threat. it might even be interesting to see of she could get info from one of my on-line pseudonyms to stand up in court.
the mask supporters are far more scary. they are already armed with needles and containment centers.
the phobic responses to this post have, i believe, shown good progress. the maskites are looking more like simple germaphobes, next generation. their multi-generational drive to sterilize the world seems to be losing its political support to the passive aggression of the silent majority. your laws don't mean much if nobody is willing to enforce them. i think. maybe. predicting socio-political trends is even touchier than predicting the weather or next year's cold and flu season. expert guesses remain guesses.
ditto for the son's litigious sister-in-law? i know her far better than i know the maskites leaders but she, too, has unknown political supporters in her large, barely familiar family. i can't seem to muster personal interest in knowing my departed son's in-laws, but i am quite certain my son wants his children to know their mother's family. for both the better and the worse, it is good to know what we are made of.
the theme of stirring up my writing style remains. this very entry is an experiment with writing on themes rather than the sequential entries which i have used for most of the half century i have kept a journal.
testing, 1, 2. 3. . .