Peace in our time

The last couple of weeks have been a bit unremarkable. After the dismal month of July, anything would be welcome. I finished step 5 last sunday. I feel so good it is hard to put into words. So many of my past obessions have vaporized into the ethers!!! Texted my ex wife on sunday evening to ask if I could talk to the kids. They called me Monday afternoon. It was so good to hear from my kids again. It had been over a month since I have been allowed by my ex to speak to them. They were on speaker phone. My soon to be two little girl said "Hi daddy." It has been May since I have seen or heard her. I told her that I love you and she said that "I love me." That is so darn cute. My son talked my ear off for about 10 minutes. He had alot of stuff to tell me. He does that anytime we get to chat. I talk to my oldest. She just turned 12. She is starting 7th grade. She sounds like a little teenager. I can remember changing her diapers. Where has the time gone. The call was over to quickly but that seems the way it always goes. My son sneaked in a call Tuesday when the rest of them were outside. He misses me terribley. Hopefully we can be together again some day. A year ago I could not imagine a day or a week without mykids. I am amazed that I can now survive months without them. I know this is all God's plan for me, but I miss them badly. I have realized that I dont need a woman to make me happy, or even my kids. I have found a serenity that is so new to me. Nobody is needed, but somebody is wanted. That is the big difference. I can want, but dont need. School starts up soon so that will dominate my life as it has the last 15 years. School is not starting a moment to soon. Things have been like a morgue around the dealership. Thank God I did not get fired with the 7 other people. I was so afraid of losing my part time status which is as rare as a virgin after prom here in the car industry. I have no idea what life has in store for me next but I am so thankful that the Lord has blessed me so well. 6 months sober and I am going strong. I am no longer in a tunnel but riding high on the plain!!!! Just hope I can stay in the saddle.