Peace in an uncertain world....
It's been a tiring week....the days pass quickly and are quite diverse but I'm am tired and restless. The nursing home visit, my mums health, my lack of money...etc...all built up and I found myself feeling quite desperate. The moment passed. I had a a long conversation with a vibrant member of staff. She told me of her recent and tough fight against breast cancer and how she now makes the most of every moment. It woke me up and made me rethink my problems. For every person doing better than me, there is someone with bigger problems. I went on to have a lovely weekend with Paul. It actually started with a 5 minute fall out. I was tired and sensitive and he was brash. Usually I would have held that against a person but 5 minutes later we laughed and both apologised to each other. The weekend was pretty close to perfect...lots of laughs, good talks, great entertainment and love. It was great when Paul said how he had spent the last 2 days looking forward to our weekend. He wants to take me away to Rome in a few weeks!
My big challenge now is to secure a job. I do love supply but the lack of security is now bothering me. I need financial security. I'm qualified enough to have it. I have to spend the next 2 weeks putting everything into this. My new work place is very complimentary but there are no permanent jobs available.
I turn to the universe for help again. Can I just say that the universe has been very good to me. It's brought me Paul and when I used to list the attributes I would look for in a partner, Paul is pretty spot on. It's also given me the chance to experience great job locations (as in nice schools). So it has been kind to me.
My big challenge now is to secure a job. I do love supply but the lack of security is now bothering me. I need financial security. I'm qualified enough to have it. I have to spend the next 2 weeks putting everything into this. My new work place is very complimentary but there are no permanent jobs available.
I turn to the universe for help again. Can I just say that the universe has been very good to me. It's brought me Paul and when I used to list the attributes I would look for in a partner, Paul is pretty spot on. It's also given me the chance to experience great job locations (as in nice schools). So it has been kind to me.
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At the moment I am experiencing constant dreams about my mothers death. My mothers health is extremely weak but I feel these dreams are more symbolic. There is much grieving but it\'s very liberating....as well as renewing.
I have a brother who is a Psychologist/Therapist and he has written many papers on dreams. He tells me (and I believe him) dreams are always aspects of us. In your journals I have sensed how you have been letting go of your Mother and your needs of her; death, ending. Is it possible the dream is telling you that\'s what you are doing? I have shared with you before, when my Mother died, I grieved so deeply (and still do) what I never had. It is all part of the grieving process. Sending you gentle hugs and lots of love as you continue to find your way! xoxoxoxoxoxox
I have been dreaming all sorts of things are coming up and out of deep dark soil; lots of things. They just keep coming and coming. I feel that is what I have been experiencing; things that I have buried for years is coming up and out of the darkness...I like it! Painful, but I like it!
What are the feelings associated to the dreams? Vicki\'s brother is being truthful, the mother in your dream is a symbol of something of you, also the death, symbolizing the \'end\' of something. To me, the main thing is your feelings during the dream. Did it seem prophetic, or was it informative without strong emotion.
Hugszzz, for both of you expressing your feelings then quickly moving on, with loving trust and laughter.
This morning I read that awareness brings emotional pain initially because we are coming out of our numbness. Maybe this ties in with what Vicki is saying about your dreams?