Thank you all for pointing out that should consider counseling. I have considered it but what I really need to do is learn to work the Al Anon better. I know I've fallen back into some of my old habits - which hasn't been a healthy place to be. I thought I was doing alright until T relapsed. And since he did, I did too, to a degree. A counselor will only point out to me what I already know. I just need to read more Al Anon literature and "work" the program. ^^ One of the reasons I do focus on T-Man in this journal is so that I have the information about him if I need it. It was suggested to me a long time ago before his court hearings by a woman down at the court house but I guess it really isn't necessary anymore. Focusing now on me.....ouch! I've been playing soccer pretty consistently for years - in and outdoor on a 30 and over co-ed team (the women only have to be 25), I can play the entire game (without subs) and for indoor - some games I play back to back. In addition, I revved up my exercise regimen by running every day on the treadmill, AND now the last few weeks I'm back playing outdoor (about an hour and half game). I never get tired and never had any "real" injuries. Well....lo and behold.....my girlfriend and I decided to go for walk today. A simple walk.......not a run.....but a walk. 5 minutes into the walk my lower leg started hurting and tightening up. I thought I could walk through it. I didn't complain much because I thought how ridiculous it was. Then tonight..... stubborn as I can be when it comes to soccer, I decided I could play through it. I did manage, in pain,.....in addition I scored two goals!! WELL.....now I can barely walk it hurts so much! Darn it! I want to play the Sunday outdoor game so badly. I HATE missing..