Past week.....
My past week has been horrible for me. I didn't want to do the things I normally do. My tv hasn't been turned on since last week, I have not watched any movies from my computer; all I have been doing is sitting and listening to country music from youtube.
I don't know where to begin to write to my journal as all these images are swirling in my head and I just need a place to put them.
I get accused for saying things or wronging people that I know I would never do and nowadays I do most of my meetings with family or friends through email or text just because of this reason alone. Take this morning for instance, (backdrop-we are planning a family reunion) my sister Mary says to me, " why did you send out a mass text, but say don't include Mary?" I said I never said that and we went back and forth until she went and got her phone (exactly what I wanted) she read the text out loud and no where did it say leave Mary out of this, at the bottom I said do not respond to me (Joe), and she read this as "keep Mary out of this?" So she said I could have worded it better or something blah blah blah and then I went back to I never said to keep Mary out of this, and do you know what she said next?...I never said that! WHAT!!!! WTF? What is this argument all about. This is why I am so fucked in the head is because of situations like these and living with my sister and my Dad.
This is just one of at least 20 things that went due south, hence the country music.
Just think if I were a lessor man with all these issues?
Burning spirit in Kenosha.
I don't know where to begin to write to my journal as all these images are swirling in my head and I just need a place to put them.
I get accused for saying things or wronging people that I know I would never do and nowadays I do most of my meetings with family or friends through email or text just because of this reason alone. Take this morning for instance, (backdrop-we are planning a family reunion) my sister Mary says to me, " why did you send out a mass text, but say don't include Mary?" I said I never said that and we went back and forth until she went and got her phone (exactly what I wanted) she read the text out loud and no where did it say leave Mary out of this, at the bottom I said do not respond to me (Joe), and she read this as "keep Mary out of this?" So she said I could have worded it better or something blah blah blah and then I went back to I never said to keep Mary out of this, and do you know what she said next?...I never said that! WHAT!!!! WTF? What is this argument all about. This is why I am so fucked in the head is because of situations like these and living with my sister and my Dad.
This is just one of at least 20 things that went due south, hence the country music.
Just think if I were a lessor man with all these issues?
Burning spirit in Kenosha.
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Some people just like drama. I just dont care what family thinks of me. I have limited my contact for such reason.Life is to short. I hope you have a better evening!!
rule #1 ) do not try to prove yourself to miserable ppl, just let them be miserable, u don\'t have to fix it, u can walk away and say Im not arguing with u about this- don\'t fall into the trap. My birth Mother is the same way, Ive learned to ignore her- like Im deaf (haha) or wear an ipod around her, just keep busy, if their in your space ask them to leave- don\'t lower your vibration to match hers. As the saying goes misery loves company..
Sorry you are feeling so horrible. These arguments are normal in my world too. I\'ve found it easier like cachetteen to say nothing and ignore it. Find something to stop the emotion in it\'s tracks. You have no one to prove anything . I try to keep in my mind \'choose your battles wisely\'
I try to re read before I send to make things clear. Some people just don\'t see what you say no matter how clear it is. I know, its happened to me too!
Take care
COUNTRY MUSIC AWESOME TUNE EVERYONE OUT HOLD UP UR HAND & SAY TALK TO THE HAND & WALK AWAY LMBO.