Passed the Peak
I'm in my mid twenties, prime time of life, and I feel like nothing. Nothing but a heap of flesh and bones, sprinkled heavily with sadness and worry. I am so disappointed in myself because I remember being so happy and excited and fulfilled in high school. That slowly started to dissipate over college and grad school. Now it's just a blank slate, and not in an inspirational, motivated way. A blank slate that feels impenetrable to any carving. I feel like I've lost myself, eons from that loving, gregarious, curious girl in high school. And that feels wretched. Like me.