Panic attacks depression chemical embalance

I look like everyone else. I act like everyone else. I have no addictions of drugs, or booze. I am a recovering cutter. I haven't done it in over a century, and I want to keep going. Its been a year since my last suicide attempt now I can create CA> I want ca to be avaialble to future generations who suffer with this affliction. I am a sponsor to two indicivisuals. And they have my utmost confidence. Unless I really felt they were in danger I have to go to their councler.
  I am trying to get well by attending psycothearpy twice a week tuesday and thursdyas so I am not around a lot. I can't answer everyone, especially when I need help. The hardest part in recovering as a cutter is asking for help. Its not an option. The first step is to not to it. STop.