Panic Attack today
Heart pounding, cant breathe, tears coming....
I haven't had one of these in close to two months and sure didn't miss them. And it is all stupid stuff.
Middle son mad with watched a movie with youngest son's girl friend without him. Middle son's wife saying yeah you never watched that movie with me. Didn't know she wanted to see it. It is dark and creepy like youngest's girlfriend. Wife is a girlie girl. Of course they are saying she did and that we promised to watch it with them many times.
Oldest son and girl came over to make stuff with youngest, but made the mistake of bringing HIS girl over yesterday and he wanted to make out with her in his room all day. I just talked to him about that and how a little is ok, but not for hours. Drug them out of the room and they went back in in 30 minutes. Walked past a couple times and they are laying on the floor covered in blankets obviously doing stuff under the blankets. Does he really think I am that naïve or stupid.
Had to run in a 5k yesterday and I can't run. Walked the whole thing. Everyone said they would stay with me, then hubby told the younger ones to go without us. Um why did he do that. So they ran off. I got upset as had told them they could and they had refused. Said wanted to stay with me, then as soon as hubby says go they go. So he runs after them and brings them back. Now I feel worse. They ask if I can pick up the pace. No can't. Old, overweight and my knee bothers me. Stupid race had obstacles and I couldn't do them. One my hubby had to come pull me over I got stuck, and others I just wouldn't try. Came off as being the old fuddy who no one is going to want to take on anything like that again. I need to lose weight and get in shape so can stay up with the "youngers". But worked 51 hours last week. When supposed to be part time.
Think half of this is just back to work and no time for anything. I don't think I had a single panic attack while I was off for 8 weeks. I am just overwhelmed. House is filthy, projects not done, no time to study for a big test I have in 6 weeks...
I don't know. So sad to be back to this.
I haven't had one of these in close to two months and sure didn't miss them. And it is all stupid stuff.
Middle son mad with watched a movie with youngest son's girl friend without him. Middle son's wife saying yeah you never watched that movie with me. Didn't know she wanted to see it. It is dark and creepy like youngest's girlfriend. Wife is a girlie girl. Of course they are saying she did and that we promised to watch it with them many times.
Oldest son and girl came over to make stuff with youngest, but made the mistake of bringing HIS girl over yesterday and he wanted to make out with her in his room all day. I just talked to him about that and how a little is ok, but not for hours. Drug them out of the room and they went back in in 30 minutes. Walked past a couple times and they are laying on the floor covered in blankets obviously doing stuff under the blankets. Does he really think I am that naïve or stupid.
Had to run in a 5k yesterday and I can't run. Walked the whole thing. Everyone said they would stay with me, then hubby told the younger ones to go without us. Um why did he do that. So they ran off. I got upset as had told them they could and they had refused. Said wanted to stay with me, then as soon as hubby says go they go. So he runs after them and brings them back. Now I feel worse. They ask if I can pick up the pace. No can't. Old, overweight and my knee bothers me. Stupid race had obstacles and I couldn't do them. One my hubby had to come pull me over I got stuck, and others I just wouldn't try. Came off as being the old fuddy who no one is going to want to take on anything like that again. I need to lose weight and get in shape so can stay up with the "youngers". But worked 51 hours last week. When supposed to be part time.
Think half of this is just back to work and no time for anything. I don't think I had a single panic attack while I was off for 8 weeks. I am just overwhelmed. House is filthy, projects not done, no time to study for a big test I have in 6 weeks...
I don't know. So sad to be back to this.
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Oh and really dumb sent a friend request to someone new on here. Can see they accepted from several other people, but not mine.
Breath slow and steady.
Eck... maybe you could rearrange the place so all of you get privacy? Do they have their own room?
Also pay attention to your sleep cycle sometimes it will induce stress if not kept in check. I hope you the best
Thanks everyone. anneccleaver I know my sleep is messed up and being so tired isn\'t helping. Dreaming like crazy every night and the dreams linger into waking up if you know what I mean. I wake up all night long too. Just don\'t know how to sleep better. I wonder if I should get medication, but my husband is so against it.
Ugh, those things suck! I take Benedryl at night other wise I\'ll be up all night! Def try to slow down when you can and re-adjust to the busy schedule :) This will pass my friend :)
I\'m sorry to hear your feeling bad,,:(..Anxiety is the pits!.......You cant make everyone happy all the time.......Your a great mom...Get some extra sleep if possible...caring thoughts and hugs xxxx