Panic Attacks
Youngest son not doing well. His work now wants him to stay until up to 2pm on every other Saturdays. That is our family day and when he sees his girlfriend. He was even supposed to be running our family events once a month. Now says he can't do anything on Saturdays. Tried to tell him we could just move stuff later. Checked with everyone else and they were ok with later. Said we would work around things.
He is having none of of it. Says he won't run his events anymore. He only ran one and says it didn't go well. That happens sometimes and he is new at running so no one was upset and it really didn't go that badly, just a bit of a hiccuph.
But now he is insisting it was bad and he shouldn't be running them and can't anyway cause of his job.
This is the only time I am guarenteed to see my kids. I don't want to give it up. Very upset and very upset about his depression getting worse over this. It is just a summer job, but the only one he has.
Does not help that he got sent home. Now he will be moping and hostile all day and I am stuck home with him.
I stepped on the scale this mornning and I am the fattest I have ever been except while pregnant with one of my children. I was going to try and start eating better today. I am such a stress eater and now I am so upset over his job and his attitude and if we will even keep having Saturday stuff.
Just freaking out, heart pounding and head throbbing. I need out of the house and away from him. Actually I need him to move out, but then of course I will never see him and will worry all the time. Maybe I just need drugs. So tired.
He is having none of of it. Says he won't run his events anymore. He only ran one and says it didn't go well. That happens sometimes and he is new at running so no one was upset and it really didn't go that badly, just a bit of a hiccuph.
But now he is insisting it was bad and he shouldn't be running them and can't anyway cause of his job.
This is the only time I am guarenteed to see my kids. I don't want to give it up. Very upset and very upset about his depression getting worse over this. It is just a summer job, but the only one he has.
Does not help that he got sent home. Now he will be moping and hostile all day and I am stuck home with him.
I stepped on the scale this mornning and I am the fattest I have ever been except while pregnant with one of my children. I was going to try and start eating better today. I am such a stress eater and now I am so upset over his job and his attitude and if we will even keep having Saturday stuff.
Just freaking out, heart pounding and head throbbing. I need out of the house and away from him. Actually I need him to move out, but then of course I will never see him and will worry all the time. Maybe I just need drugs. So tired.
Replies
My prayers are going out to you and your son, thinking about you both, and I am very sorry you are going through such a horrible time, message me whenever you feel like unloading, I am here to listen and talk it out:) hugs and love
that really stinks about his job.Summer wont last too long and than job is over? sounds like a good idea to move things to later in the day on saturdays,so he can be included.you can still do a family dinner and movie or something.I\'m dealing with a depressed one this summer too and it really is difficult.so i understand.I hope you feel better.... thinking of you...