Panic Attack

Freaking out last night and more this morning.  Just too much change.  Youngest announced last night girl who lives 50 miles south of us is now his girlfriend.  Wonder if I will ever see him again.  Sigh.  She is too far to drive to bring her up to our house and take back home.  And the one place we used to see her regularly with her dad we can't as she has a restraining order against him.  Don't even know if Joey will still want to go there as the dad is there still.  But that is where I see oldest son a lot so don't want to stop going.  What a mess.  Trying to be supportive of the relationship but so scared.  He turns 18 on Friday and just no idea what he will choose to do.  He doesn't talk to me at all.  Already having so much trouble with Zachary moved out even though I have seen him every day since he did, now worried about not seeing youngest hardly at all.
Mother coming tonight adding more stress.  Couldn't sleep, more stress headache.  Have to work today.
I hate this.  I am a fairly logical person and can tell I am overreacting to everything and definitely over worrying, but just can't stop.  Stomach is in knots, head is pounding, can't sit still....And nothing has gone wrong yet....Wish I could turn it off somehow.  Learn to meditate or something.  Hate feeling like this.