Panic

So Monday I helped my oldest son and daughter in law move into a house.  I was so excited.  Some of my anxiety left as I felt they were settled here and I would get to see my grandchildren when they come along, grow up.  Today, Friday, he had a job interview and said if he gets it in like 5 years he might get transferred to another state.  The position that is open is because someone transferred to New York.  this was such a relief for me that they bought a house and settled down here.   They want their kids to grow up in the same place from Kindergarten to high school.  They plan to have them in 5 years, so they would move away and never come back.  I know he doesn't have the job, and maybe he wouldn't stay there that long and maybe he wouldn't get moved anyway.  But it was just so nice to think their thoughts of moving across the country were over.  Apparently not.  One more worry I now can't cross off my list.  

I actually did mention to the doctor my anxiety levels are really high.  They gave me a quiz to rate my anxiety, but didn't give me the results or any possible options to help control it.  First time I have reached out for help.  End result  nothing.   So often just feel trapped in "worry mode" and no one understands.  I get laughed at, told to just let it go, told I am being ridiculous.  They have no idea how I wish I could just take a deep breath and let it all go.