Painful dreams

Just when I think i'm over him...I dream of him and each time it gets more and more hurtful.
I walked up some stairs and there he is playing videogames. He looked up and called me over to him, told me he missed me and was kissing me all over and then next thing I know we are having sex and I have tears running down my face because i'm so happy to be back with him....Then we finish up and he reaches into his pocket, pulls out his wallet, shoves some money into my hand and pushes me out the door saying it was fun.
 
Now I was crying because I loved him and he did that...I have no idea what it means but it hurt