Painful days

The anxiety still seems to get the best of me at times. This past week has been sticken with no sleep and constant wondering if the love of my life still loves me anymore. I truly feel I have been a good and loving husband. I have made my mistakes and so has she. I am affraid that she will resent our marrige because she feels that I have taken her away from her family even though the 4 years we have been married I have not seen my family at all. We have spent a few thanksgivings and christmas's with hers. It doesnt make sense to me. I sit her in Iraq and wonder how and why I am failing my marrige and yet confused that is it really all my fault. I really dont have any idea what to think anymore. I pray that God will give her the strength to make it through this painful time.