Pain This Morning 1/4/2014
So 4am and the chronic pain was there...fun. I should have know I couldn't go more then a day without it coming back. It's hard having your hopes crushed on a dailly basis.
Tuesday is my pain doc appointment and it's going to be below zero but I really don't care. I pray to God he has some new ideas or some form of symptom relief but I'm worried I'm going to get a pat on the head and a "it will be fine someday". This is what doctors do when they have no answers. It's not the doctors fault but I really need something, ANYTHING, that can just relieve the symptoms.
The worst part of this all is having no way to stop the pain. It's like having an itch on your back that you can never reach and it never stops itching! I'm just so frustrated and angry about this whole thing.
I finally get my mental state leveled out but this damn pain threatens to bring me back into the pit. I'm fighting for that not to happen. I know that everyone has something to deal with but this thing is just frustrating me to no end!
I'm anxious about my doc appointment Tuesday. I just don't want to get my hopes up again only to have them crushed again. God help me there has to be some relief out there. I just pray this doc has some answers and some new ideas. I just don't want to slip back into depression again.
Tuesday is my pain doc appointment and it's going to be below zero but I really don't care. I pray to God he has some new ideas or some form of symptom relief but I'm worried I'm going to get a pat on the head and a "it will be fine someday". This is what doctors do when they have no answers. It's not the doctors fault but I really need something, ANYTHING, that can just relieve the symptoms.
The worst part of this all is having no way to stop the pain. It's like having an itch on your back that you can never reach and it never stops itching! I'm just so frustrated and angry about this whole thing.
I finally get my mental state leveled out but this damn pain threatens to bring me back into the pit. I'm fighting for that not to happen. I know that everyone has something to deal with but this thing is just frustrating me to no end!
I'm anxious about my doc appointment Tuesday. I just don't want to get my hopes up again only to have them crushed again. God help me there has to be some relief out there. I just pray this doc has some answers and some new ideas. I just don't want to slip back into depression again.
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I hope you feel better soon. I was relatively free of depression over the holidays but now that work has started back up, am feeling like I\'m slipping back into the abyss. It\'s a daily struggle. I will try to be mindful of small pleasures and periods of relative peace and be thankful for them. I hope you can do the same.
Man, I am so praying hard for you and this appointment! With GOD on our side...physical AND emotional pain can not and will NOT win my brother!!!!!