Pain > Love

Pain is the strongest emotion we haveIt makes us want to hide our heads in the sandIt makes us push away true loveIt makes us sick or curse whats aboveIt brings us down so fucking farThat we forget just who we arewe forget just what we wantand we end up cold and darkWe lust for death we feel deep hateWe start to believe that its our fate Pain is such a strong emotionIt can stop us from making forward motionAnd that is all I truly wantIs to keep on moving never stopI use to really believe in loveNow Im not sure what is what Im not sure if Im worth it at allI sit here and I fucking bawlDown the darkest hall's I crawlwishing I was never here at allI wish that you could understandthis longing I have to be a manBut this pain is greater than hopeI cant seem do much but mopePain is the deepest emotion I know this now that my heart is brokenBroken now once and again This is just so great my friendsIf I this pain I can not shake I just hope I don't make a mistake  A mistake about the dosage I takeOr the cuts I fucking make Because if I don't just dieThe pain will never end inside And I cant take the shit much longerI cant be much fucking strongerI am so lost and alone I wish I could just find my home.  Please no one trip out about the darkness in this poem, I write these tings so that I WONT act on my stupid emotions and delusions.
I am ok!! I will be ok!! Life goes on...I guess...