Pain Inside

My life: is becoming somewhat better every day; however, at times... I think about:
- family members who have passed away
- not having a license or a car... (relying on people rips me up inside when I want to make friends)...
- and... Not really have anyone to hang out with instead of family much anymore...
So, you can say, "my life is boring"... I don't do much really besides:
- collect things such as: comics, beanie babies, baseball cards, toy cars, coco cola stuff.
- doing thing outside such as: walking, yard work, looking at stars, looking at a sunset
- drawing cartoons
- watching movies
- watching tv
Yeah... It's what it is... I'm tired of feeling as if, no matter what I do in life I end up right back where I started... I want people to hang out with; so, that I can have more fun... I'm not a bad person... Just handed a bad hand to play with...