pain

today this pain has been murder, I woke up at 07.50 and realised that I had not woken on time for my morning tablets which I usually take around 5,30am, I know its not that long passed the time but it makes a massive difference to my overall pain, suffering from fibromyalgia in this weather is bad enough, but my nerve pain from my slipped disc, and the pain from this adenomyosis is slowly cracking me up. I am trying to be brave,smile and carry on. I woke to my whole back belly and legs throbbing, my knees feel bruised again like I have been trampled by a horse,(not that I know how that feels) its just from the tips of my fingers to the tips of my toes im hurting, in some parts its very superficial pain like close to the surface of my fingers etc, but then the  deep deep aching cramping throbbing and stabbing pain coming from my pelvis right now, If the hospotal called me now to sah they had a cancellation anf im nextg on the list, as scared as I am I would be down there like a shot, I am supposedly o the list for next month, I hope that does not mean ots going to be march april. I have been determined that this year I am going to get myself well, not completley but I am hoping to be able to move without feeling so stiff, and try to reduce my fatigue, but I wont be able to do anything until this damned period pain is gone, IM just not coping with it at all. its constant, im sat here with my heat pad constantly on my belly, I have had heat on it for so long in the past I actually developed a blister. so today although I am trying to keep my chin up, this pain is too much on top of the rest. my hips and back the pain is shooting across up down etc, it would be nice to wake up one day soon and not feel as if i have not slept all night and that i have run a marathon and im in agony from overworked muscles, when in actual fact I have not hardly moved the muscles at all. Just waiting for the phone call now, one thing at a time now to get myself sorted, so thats the hysterectomy forst and go on from there.