party............

i was sooooo triggered yesterday.......i was at my cousin's second birthday party yesterday.....there was a guy who looked like M and i tried to control myself...be polite, but try to avoid him and THEN there was ANOTHER guy that looked like M and his NAME was M!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAKED ME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted to scream and cry and lose control and run to the car and drive away but i couldn't.....i stood there in complete fear and shock as my uncle introduced us........and i just flipped....and then i went with m mom to the store today and there was guy named M and he looked liek him again!!! God i hate this!!! i just wish he killed me!!!!