Ovulation? When?
The drama continues...yesterday the nurse told me to come in today for another blood test. Last week there was no follicles and my levels were not high so they assumed that I was ovulating later...which makes sense. I have been charting everything and my peek temperatures seem to happen around the 21st when I am on clomid. Well today she told me that I must have ovulated so they are cancelling the cycle monitoring. Can you believe it???when the H@$# did I ovulate? Most of the time I can feel the ovulation pain, but this time I felt nothing. Damn clomid!We should just give up. I can not take it anymore. I will live out the rest of my life mourning for a child I never got to see or hold. I will watch happy families float in and out of my life and I will hide the pain I feel because I do not have children. I now know what my parents friends felt like everytime we all got together for parties. I could see the pain in her eyes as she watched us play. Anne always seemed so reserved and now I know why. They tried for years to have children and she had several miscarriages. I often thought that they would make wonderful parents but I had no idea of the pain they had gone through. It makes sense to me now why they travelled so much. They lived on every continent and have seen amasing events. My God, you can see the love in their eyes when they look at each other. They can communicate without talking. it is so beautiful to see. If DH and I can not have children I hope that we can follow in their footsteps.
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I\'m sorry this is all happening to you! I know this must be very painful and hard right now. But you can\'t give up on what you want! This could turn out to be a long journey, but the rewards in the end could be wonderful! You will never know if you just give up and throw away your dreams. Stress can get the best of us all, but we have to keep reminding ourselves to relax. Patience is a virtue, but easily ran out of at times like these. I\'m sure you and your DH share a love that will connect you for all time and with that love comes faith and hope together. Hold on to each other and that love when you don\'t feel strong and know you are not alone, you have each other! And you will always have the wonderful ladies here at DS whenever you need another woman to talk to or just vent! My prayers are with you!! Together we can all keep strong and keep on trying because with strength in numbers God is bound to hear us sooner or later!!! My heart and prayers with you always, God bless!!!
I am so sorry to hear about the cancelled cycle. Don\'t give up. I know how hard and painful it is right now but I hope and pray you will find the strength to move forward and continue trying.