Overslept Today
I slept all last night and into this afternoon. I'm so tired from oversleeping... I'm just glad I got my walk in today. I walked my regular 1.2 miles. I'm supposed to do my next 5k tomorrow, so it's going to be a challenge. I'm looking forward to it, though. I just hope I sleep good tonight and I wake up with energy tomorrow. I forgot about my goal of not sleeping more than 12 hours a night, and I think that had a lot to do with it. I know the first couple days I got back I was sleeping a bit more, but that's because I was trying to catch up, and even so it wasn't the 15 hours I got last night. I was just so tired, you know? I just wanted to sleep and sleep. Tonight I'm going to sleep, and when I wake up at a reasonable time I'm going to get out of bed and have my coffee and start my day. If I wake up early enough, I might be able to do my 5k and go in and volunteer.
I notice for sure on days that I don't go in and volunteer. Today my mood was just okay, even though I've been doing so good lately because I've been so tired. I didn't get much done.... just lounged around the house, got the garbage cleaned up and taken out, cleaned the litter box and cooked dinner. It doesn't seem like a lot to me, since when I was at my mom's I was doing a lot more. At least when I go in to volunteer I am doing something as well. Today I didn't even unpack, and my stuff is still in my luggage. I have so much clothes to put away, but I have no place to put them. The closet is blocked by Geo's fan and stuff, and I don't have a dresser or something to put the clothes in. I guess they will just have to stay in the boxes for now.
I don't like having such a mess in my room, but I can't afford to go out and get a dresser right now, and even if I could afford it I would have no way to get it back to my apartment. I guess I could get Geo's dad to help out, but depending on someone else is hard to do. I like getting stuff from Freecycle or Craigslist, and those places want you to pick up ASAP and that's hard to do when you are depending on someone else. I can't wait until we have a car and we can get stuff on our own. Of course, for something like a dresser we would still need the help of Geo's dad, but it would be easier because we could just trade him the car for the day. Or, we could rent a car or something, but that would be a big deal because they want a large down payment for renting a car if you don't have a credit card, which we don't.
Anyway, my mood today has been okay. I wouldn't say it's been bad at all, by any means, but it hasn't been good. I've just been tired. I should know by now not to sleep so much, but it's so hard when my bed is so comfortable. I just love being in bed. I hope that doesn't mean that depression is coming, but I've been doing what I can to avoid it, except for today. I've been exercising and stuff, getting out of the house and taking my medications. I don't know what else I need to do to fight off depression. I've been doing really good for the most part, getting out of the house and going to volunteering and my mom's, and taking care of my mom was really good too. It relieved a lot of my stress I had with her, even if it did add some a bit, seeing things like my mom's beautiful handwriting changed so drastically. The doctor said she should be able to get control back in her right side, so all she has to do is her exercises and quit smoking.
Food today was good. I was in my calorie range for the day... I was low on carbohydrates, but other than that I was good. I have to eat things like pumpkin pastries to meet my calorie goal, but I'm meeting it. I also had some baby carrots in ranch dressing, and that was wonderful. I love baby carrots and ranch. I'm going to have another one of the pumpkin pastries tomorrow, and then I will be done with them. I find it funny that I'm feeling good but still having trouble meeting my calorie goal. Well, yesterday I met it because I had a sponsored lunch, and the day before it I was low. Maybe I'm still a bit depressed on the inside? I don't know. I feel fine, I don't feel depressed. Then again, it could be like me and stress. I don't know I'm stressed until I'm screaming and crying at the same time. Speaking of stress, today it was low... all I did was sleep. Mood is okay, and sleep I got way too much, but that's the way it goes. I just have to live and learn.
I notice for sure on days that I don't go in and volunteer. Today my mood was just okay, even though I've been doing so good lately because I've been so tired. I didn't get much done.... just lounged around the house, got the garbage cleaned up and taken out, cleaned the litter box and cooked dinner. It doesn't seem like a lot to me, since when I was at my mom's I was doing a lot more. At least when I go in to volunteer I am doing something as well. Today I didn't even unpack, and my stuff is still in my luggage. I have so much clothes to put away, but I have no place to put them. The closet is blocked by Geo's fan and stuff, and I don't have a dresser or something to put the clothes in. I guess they will just have to stay in the boxes for now.
I don't like having such a mess in my room, but I can't afford to go out and get a dresser right now, and even if I could afford it I would have no way to get it back to my apartment. I guess I could get Geo's dad to help out, but depending on someone else is hard to do. I like getting stuff from Freecycle or Craigslist, and those places want you to pick up ASAP and that's hard to do when you are depending on someone else. I can't wait until we have a car and we can get stuff on our own. Of course, for something like a dresser we would still need the help of Geo's dad, but it would be easier because we could just trade him the car for the day. Or, we could rent a car or something, but that would be a big deal because they want a large down payment for renting a car if you don't have a credit card, which we don't.
Anyway, my mood today has been okay. I wouldn't say it's been bad at all, by any means, but it hasn't been good. I've just been tired. I should know by now not to sleep so much, but it's so hard when my bed is so comfortable. I just love being in bed. I hope that doesn't mean that depression is coming, but I've been doing what I can to avoid it, except for today. I've been exercising and stuff, getting out of the house and taking my medications. I don't know what else I need to do to fight off depression. I've been doing really good for the most part, getting out of the house and going to volunteering and my mom's, and taking care of my mom was really good too. It relieved a lot of my stress I had with her, even if it did add some a bit, seeing things like my mom's beautiful handwriting changed so drastically. The doctor said she should be able to get control back in her right side, so all she has to do is her exercises and quit smoking.
Food today was good. I was in my calorie range for the day... I was low on carbohydrates, but other than that I was good. I have to eat things like pumpkin pastries to meet my calorie goal, but I'm meeting it. I also had some baby carrots in ranch dressing, and that was wonderful. I love baby carrots and ranch. I'm going to have another one of the pumpkin pastries tomorrow, and then I will be done with them. I find it funny that I'm feeling good but still having trouble meeting my calorie goal. Well, yesterday I met it because I had a sponsored lunch, and the day before it I was low. Maybe I'm still a bit depressed on the inside? I don't know. I feel fine, I don't feel depressed. Then again, it could be like me and stress. I don't know I'm stressed until I'm screaming and crying at the same time. Speaking of stress, today it was low... all I did was sleep. Mood is okay, and sleep I got way too much, but that's the way it goes. I just have to live and learn.
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You are keeping a great record of your moods.
Food sounds good.