Overeating Is Not Good

I still cant believe OW had the nerve to contact me.. It makes me feel crazy knowing that she is with my husband and might someday meet my kids. I dont want to share them with anyone.  The whole situation just sucks.. I've been overeating and gained almost 15 pounds since June.  I did really bad this semester in school.  I hate that I have been broken down into this weak person who lets a man's drama get in my way.  Makes me want to run away and hide and never see him again.  I dont know how to deal with it. I have tried everything to make me feel better, but it never lasts cuz I always end up with some new issue relating to BD. 
Today my friend and I took our kids to a science museum which was awesome.. It was a great day, but here I am back home feeling like crap cuz I just ate 4 slices of pizza and my house is a wreck and I havnt started wrapping presents yet..
I hope & pray that my life turns out a success story.. I hope by summer my journal entries are awesome and have nothing to do with that bastard.  He's done nothing but hurt me and my kids.
I havent gone to see my therapist since Oct when BD was here.. I havnt felt like talking to anyone about this issue except my mom and a close friend.. My therapist called today and left a voicemail wanting to check on me.. IDK if I'm ready to go see her.. I'm so frustrated and disappointed, mainly in myself.