over the hump

I can almost exhale, but not quite. It has taken me more than a year to finally take the biggest step of my life. I finally pinned my husband down this week and we filled out the divorce paperwork! It haas been a struggle to make him understand that no amount of charm will win me back. He had me for 20 years and now admits that he took me for granted and that he never gave to our marriage what it we needed to survive. I know that I gave him, and our children my heart and my soul 150%. It just blows my f###ing mind that he wasted my youth, my time, and cheated me out of a marriage. Where I was sad, angry, and depressed I'm now mildly pissed off when I thing about it to long. I am so over him. To his credit he knows that this was the BIG one! And I'm so OVER the HUMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!6 MORE WEEKS and I'll be able to finally exhale!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!