Over nite in the ER
Well, I spent the night in the ER last night. Diagnosis, "Arrhythmia". I thought for sure that I was biting the big weenie. First thing the ER Dr. asked me is are you under any sort of stress? "Who, Me?" I have been STRESSED all of my life. The good thing is, they took an Xray of my heart and said it looks great and my heart, he said, sounded stronger than an ox. Now, I am waiting for the Dr. office to call and get me in to see a Cardiologist and see what is causing the heart to be out of rhythm. Of course, I panicked, which made it all worse. Blood pressure was 183/120 and pulse was 133. Sharp pains in chest, short of breath, etc.
I thought to myself, not now, I have been working too hard to "fix" myself and I am not done with it yet. I also thought of all of the times that I WANTED to die and tried to die and then when I thought that it was happening, I realized that I am not finished yet. Strange, huh?
Before I leave this Earth, I will have succeeded. End of my story for right now.
I thought to myself, not now, I have been working too hard to "fix" myself and I am not done with it yet. I also thought of all of the times that I WANTED to die and tried to die and then when I thought that it was happening, I realized that I am not finished yet. Strange, huh?
Before I leave this Earth, I will have succeeded. End of my story for right now.
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I like your spirit! You have gotten so far and accomplished so much. May your determination to heal be crowned with success.
Thanks Donna and Bit....The Dr. seems to think that I have Sinus Tachycardia which is usually brought on by stress and anxiety. She has ordered a holter to wear for a week, to monitor my heart and then I will see a Cardiologist. Oh my.
Bit, you made me laugh. We could be sisters, my mother was quite a \"rounder\" LOL
Haha, Bit, My Mother too, someone was always lined up, before the dirty deed (divorce) was done. God forbid that she would have to take care of herself. I never did figure out, what made her such a Queen with all of the men. Hmmm?