OUTSIDE!!
I got outside today! brushed my horses, havent done that in a long time, i felt bad. let them run around, out of the muck. my wonderful "friend" came and took care of baby for me. he is so good with her. I think i will give him a chance. i told him if he lost some weight, i know, sounds mean to say but true. but he is willing and supportive of us. he cares so much for Ariyah too. its so nice to have the help. and i did let him kiss me, just to see where i was emotionally, and i was ok with it. i dont feel the need to rush, or obligated in any way. i am O.K. It felt so good to be outside again... after the winter and the pregnancy. my horses were communicative and so happy to have some time out with me. i need to get out more often. and my daughter is so beautiful. i love her. i still feel unorganized, and cluttered because of the lack of space, but im generally just, good. i like being a mom. i like life today.
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I knew you would love being a mom, I just knew it! Hey, maybe this guy will lose some weight, you never know? Love can be a motivator! Wish I could...lol Lose weight, that is. Gotta\' quit eating so much...Duh! Can\'t wish it away! Still, I wish.... My guy has seen me thin and thick! lol You\'re giving him a chance? At what? Not trying to sound like a smarty pants, but maybe he\'s giving you a chance. Had to write that cos\' I just heard my husband saying that, in my mind! In any case, start out by taking it slowly, a slow chance :) Not that I\'m trying to tell you what to do, I\'ve just had a few er, um fat boyfriends in my life. Sadly, I couldn\'t get past it, the weight thing. Poor guys... But molds were made to be broken! Loving another person isn\'t about what they look like on the outside, it usually starts out that way, but not always. I\'ve had a few funny looking boyfriends, too! lol Mark is very handsome, but ya\' know what? I didn\'t think so when I first met him, I thought he was okay, kinda\' skinny though. Skinny turned into thin to win! We\'ve been together longer than any other relationship for both of us, going on ten yrs, I think! We\'re both not very good with dates! Just take it easy and enjoy your little one...Love, Robin
Glad you have a friend to watch baby while you are with the horses. It\'s important to have a little me time when you are a Mommy. Hugs, Deb
Hey, look at it this way; you don\'t want to get attached to him, and then have his health decline due to his weight. You are only being a good friend by urging him to lose weight.
I know exactly how you feel; I have been spending some time with my horses, too.