Out of time.
Well I'm out of time.The SS department called me this morning and told me they still haven't made a decision on my disability.There sending me to one of there doctors to evaluate me.I gave them all my records 4 months ago and that was not good enough.They did the same thing to my wife right before they denied her.I worked 30 years of my life and struggled through the last 3 trying to keep a pay check coming in.I been down for 9 months now,losing my home,medical problems that won't go away,but it doesn't matter to them.I have days now before I'm removed from my home.I will try and pull the energy together to start moving what I can out.The rest I will have to leave.It's time to face reality that no one cares and pull myself out of this terrible situation.The timing couldn't have been worse.Christmas used to be such a happy time in my life,but this year will haunt me till the day I die.I can't even put into words the pain I feel in my soul.And yet I have to carry on.Lord give me the strength and please help my friends here with the will to deal with there pains.Specially Heather who is going through an even tougher time than myself.And please forgive me if I have hurt anybody's feelings in the attempts I have made to reach out.I hope ya'll have a great Christmas and I won't be bothering anybody again ,so I bid you goodbye.Dale
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Please don\'t leave us. I can\'t imagine that you\'ve hurt anyone\'s feelings. Anyway, you are going through such a hard time right now. I can only imagine. I pray you find the strength and courage to hang on and not give up hope. God is with you Dale. Stay here where we can support you. hugs
You are right kuehlc,I need help and the support from my friends here.I can\'t believe my life has gotten this mess up in a little more than a year.The ssd calling today really put me over the edge.I try and try to stay positive,but nothing is ever getting better.I have to leave my home and I thought I would grow old here.I don\'t have the physical energy to do this and I am getting so tired of this struggle.I believe in Jesus and keep thinking some miracle will happen,but I have run out of time and my strength is low.Tis the season for miracles and I won\'t give up till the day I die.I\'m fighting depression every minute now.And now I have upset one of my friends here with my kidding around.I feel the worst, this moment ,than I ever thought I could feel.I wish I could wakeup from this nightmare.