Out of the Pan... Into the Fire.... So SAD

it's going from bad to worse. and i just do not think the worst of it is over with yet. 

my mom had my brother arrested and put in jail yesterday for his conduct / drunkness and doing drugs. he was going crazy and then got mad bc she hid his keys and medications / clozepam. etc. 

he went crazy . he was so angry that she became frightened and had to call the cops . he was arrested and taken to jail. she also got a restraining order on him. 

and I have mono.... crazy stressed out. 

this is unbelievable. i can't believe it has come to this. i can't believe my mother is so stupid that he will just get "fixed".. 

he is not going to rehab. he will not stay if he does. 

i really believe that my brother will be dead within a year... or sooner. i just do not believe he will get help. he's too far gone. i really believe that. 

i do not know why, but i have never believed he would get sober. he's in so much pain. 

if he is not going to get sober and well, i just pray that God go ahead and take him. i hate to say that... but he has truly not been alive for about ten years now. or at least since daddy died. maybe daddy will come and take him. i almost pray that he will. 

but i do not want him to hurt anyone, himself or to go tragically. i want him just to pass in his sleep and leave the pain of this earth. 

i'm so saddened. i'm so sad for the past forty years for him... this disease he did not ask for and he has been crippled with it for so long. i'm so sad and sorry for  him... 

if you are reading this... plz pray for my family. we have hard times ahead. 

thank you.

ginger