Our Trip
I found out this week exactly how my sisters feel about my H and me. I can understand their hostility towards him for what he has done to me but I can't understand not wanting to even see me because I am trying to reconcile with him. Except for having an affair, he is still the same person they have known for all these years. It hurts to know that they feel that way towards me for trying to save my marriage. I would think that they would want me to try to keep us together if it is meant to be. I would think that they would have been proud of me for not giving in and taking the easy way out by divorcing him immediately. I had thought they would support me...evidently they don't.
They feel that I am making a huge mistake by staying. They can't forgive him...well, it is not their place to forgive...it is mine!!!
I feel alone in this without my family. I guess that I should not be surprised. My sisters have not ever really supported me they way they should. Neither one of them has supported me with anything I have done. They did not think I could go to college and work a job simultaneously...I did it but they didn't. They did not think that I should marry...I have been married now for 16 years and have 2 great kids because of it. They did not think that I would be a good mother...and still don't though I don't know why. They didn't think we should have moved from our hometown to a place 4 hrs away...we love it here. They told me that I would never get a job working the hours I needed in order to be at home with my kids when they get in from school....well, I did! They told me that I would not amount to much...well, I make more than they do and have a steady job where my boss respects me (well, ok, he does most days)!
I think I am going to give up on getting their approval or even giving a crap what they think about me, my family or my life. They don't ask my approval or acceptance for their lives or choices, why should I need theirs? I DON"T!!!
All I want is sisterly support...geez is that so wrong? It is a crying shame when my friends and this DS site give me more support than my own sisters. WTH!!! I hope that they never have to go through what I am. I don't wish this on them no matter what.
They feel that I am making a huge mistake by staying. They can't forgive him...well, it is not their place to forgive...it is mine!!!
I feel alone in this without my family. I guess that I should not be surprised. My sisters have not ever really supported me they way they should. Neither one of them has supported me with anything I have done. They did not think I could go to college and work a job simultaneously...I did it but they didn't. They did not think that I should marry...I have been married now for 16 years and have 2 great kids because of it. They did not think that I would be a good mother...and still don't though I don't know why. They didn't think we should have moved from our hometown to a place 4 hrs away...we love it here. They told me that I would never get a job working the hours I needed in order to be at home with my kids when they get in from school....well, I did! They told me that I would not amount to much...well, I make more than they do and have a steady job where my boss respects me (well, ok, he does most days)!
I think I am going to give up on getting their approval or even giving a crap what they think about me, my family or my life. They don't ask my approval or acceptance for their lives or choices, why should I need theirs? I DON"T!!!
All I want is sisterly support...geez is that so wrong? It is a crying shame when my friends and this DS site give me more support than my own sisters. WTH!!! I hope that they never have to go through what I am. I don't wish this on them no matter what.
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