Ouch...didn't see that coming
FET has been canceled for next week.
I called this morning because I had some light spotting yesterday and today & it isn't normal for me to have any spotting in between cycles. She had me come in for an ultrasound and decided to cancel the FET because my endromentrim was "unstable" I could actually see it moving in the screen and she doesn't want to place an embryo in that, understandably. I was devastated and cried the whole way back to work. I asked when we could do it next expecting next month but she said November because of the Lupron, etc- double blow. So then I thought, oh well that could be nice to find out we are pregnant before Christmas! But then I snap myself out of it- why do I think shit like that... That's what gets me into trouble. Now that that is in my head (and can't get it out) I will be a big puddle of a mess on Christmas if it hasn't worked... I freaking hate IF so, so much. I have just died inside that this won't ever happen for us.
I called this morning because I had some light spotting yesterday and today & it isn't normal for me to have any spotting in between cycles. She had me come in for an ultrasound and decided to cancel the FET because my endromentrim was "unstable" I could actually see it moving in the screen and she doesn't want to place an embryo in that, understandably. I was devastated and cried the whole way back to work. I asked when we could do it next expecting next month but she said November because of the Lupron, etc- double blow. So then I thought, oh well that could be nice to find out we are pregnant before Christmas! But then I snap myself out of it- why do I think shit like that... That's what gets me into trouble. Now that that is in my head (and can't get it out) I will be a big puddle of a mess on Christmas if it hasn't worked... I freaking hate IF so, so much. I have just died inside that this won't ever happen for us.
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I\'m so sorry. It\'s frustrating to have a plan in mind and have to change. IF is so frustrating and in the end there is only so much we can control. It\'s hard to have to wait . There still is hope for November. Big hugs.
I am so sorry hun, that is just heart breaking. No matter how much we plan and prep, we never know how this journey will go and its not fair for frick sake!!! You should not have to deal with this and I will pray that November will be your month for a miracle.
Thinking of you and sending you big hugs
Sending you a humongous hug. I am so sorry for your pain. IF is just the most unfair, excruciating condition. I hope September and October fly by and that November will be your month!!
I\'m so sorry!!! At least they realized it was unstable and you didn\'t waste embryos. Still a big bummer! Hugs! I\'ll be crossing my fingers you have an extra special Christmas!
I\'m so sorry Nikki. I\'m praying that you get some answers and good news soon!
I am sorry things didn\'t go as planned. Hoping you get some answers so you can move forward.
Thanks guys, I am trying to stay positive and focus on my health and loosing some weight before the transfer. But it\'s been a rough day emotionally...uh!
So sorry! BUT...better to put it off when things look better for you FET, than to waste them this time around. Seriously sorry though! Glad you are trying to stay positive.
Sorry it was canceled, but at least your RE is not going to waste your time/money/hope when it wont work.
I\'m so sorry!! I was in your shoes just a few weeks ago with my FET being cancelled because of thin lining. It sucks big time but for the best. Try to stay positive and November will be here before you know it!
I\'m so sorry, that totally sucks. I hate when you go in, you have a plan, and then it totally changes. As if IF wasn\'t hard enough, never knowing what direction you are going in sucks more. A forced break gives you a good excuse to focus on what is more important- you.
So sorry your FET was cancelled. I\'m sure it was for the best, no point in wasting your embrie but I get why you are feeling so low.
Thinking of you.
Really Sorry about this, im sure you are fuming- i had 2 forced breaks myself and know how it feels, fustrating :(
Just seeing this....so sorry about the cancellation. ((hugs))