ot enough sleep....

I am not getting enough sleep-only 6 hrs isn't enough-woke at 20 to 6 this morning...
I feel fine though a bit sluggish.... Writing in my journal is good centring and grounding...
I need to look at travel plans for september esp bus timetables...its the buses times and accommodation that I am most concerned about-does one book in advance or wing it?
need help with this?
Ask Joe to check? or email bus company???
Plenty of time to go forwards...
What else is new?
Did I mention that I am enrolling in a decor course? Hopefully I can do it-I'm not very creative...but maybe they will teach me...? Could be  agood new job for me....the final module is about finding work as an Interior designer.
I feel good that Ive made my mind up on which course I want to do...
Having coffee with Pat this morning-taking bus from bottom of hill hope it turns up....etc. The texts he sends me are pretty mad....hope he's OK...
3 days off now-lovely-I took half of yesterday off due to cold coming...no more sick leave....bugger....I need time off to regoup my reources.
need to start writing my book. Foreword what, when, who, why and where or whatever it is....
Nice and quiet in the morning-just clock ticking at 6:15 am...still dark, but birds are starting up...
I feel OK about what Ivan said-OK with idea that he could ask me to leave...not today or tomorrow though....
I wish he would be up front with me- are things really that bad between us?
I am happy whatever happens--- moving is always stressful, but this time I would take my time finding somewhere thats right for me....
.I love it here but appreciate it all the more thinking I will be leaving it agaian sooner or later.....
Ivan will be  a lifelong friend....
It's funny that I don't feel worse about it....but I really don't---i am used to being alone again naturally, moving on alone, its all right whatever happens...
someone else waiting in the wings.....
Ivan will help me look....I dont want him to settle for good enough-or me for that matter....but in the meantime we are getting along fine...no arguments- no stressing about anything....
I have  a slight cold.... gal flu-enough to come home from work yesterday.
It will be hard doing this trip but I can do it....And the rewards will be legion.
Self reliance, self sufficiency, achievement of goal, meeting DS friends...writing book....
Plus beautiful scenery and sights to see.
Its all OK.