ordinary day~~~

Today was kind like everyday, nothing new happened,, now that i have got used to hit the gym almost everyday and i encounter the same persons..
Well, i am just writing because i am feeling plain boring, mostly because of the assignments i am getting, even more and more difficult for me to handle. Well, sometimes i really feel stressed out but because i run for half an hour, this quite cheers up my mood and consoles me that i have done something worth while for the day.
At the end of the day, why can't parents let their kids do what they want, it is not them that have to live with this burden ever after, then why?
During these days, i was trying, however hard it may be, to like the subject, course thrust upon me, but now it is as if exceeding the limit. I do not know what to do. I have till now, came across, by being somewhat positive but because previously it was new to me, i kind of appreciate that. It has now been 4 weeks already and i really need to find something new and enjoyable so that i can continue to keep my mind on. I wonder how certain people are so involved and balanced in life that they overcome every hurdles and difficulties.
Well, i try my best in that field, i don't want to give up, but when there is no encouragement from the family, no mutual support as such, life is simply boring and feels heavy!!!
Friends are of no great help as such...they are just here when you are happy but when you really need them, they pretend to be busy!
Life is so funny nah ...people respect and recognize you when you are somebody, when you have money, when you are witty and out going and when you keep on laughing, no matter how hurt and tortured you feel inside...
I don't know what's in reserve for the future for me, but i feel not that much happiness living with my parents (even if they give me everything and takes care of me). Somewhere, there is this affection missing which i am looking for...I try to forget and dissolve all that in my sports...even if i am not allowed to because seemingly i should focus more on my studies, but this year, i have vowed to do things that i like and be happy....
This life is so short i believe and i have well listened (well i am still obeying to orders) but somewhat mixing my own lifestyle if not i will be living hell out here...
hope that things change sooner for me if not....

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Keep hoping, hon. Things can only get better. I totally understand though. take care...