Optimistically Hopeful For The Future...
Due to recent event's I'm almost nervous to report anything "good", for I've felt my life a little cursed as of recent! But I had a meeting with my property's rental staff, as of today I am here by released from my lease. The manager told me to consider myself "month to month", and not bound to e lease that would end this up coming December.
Why is this good news, since my -ex-fiance has left me, I've been trying my best to get the hell out of this apartment and be allowed to move else where. Some where, where there will be no memories, some where never shared with anyone else, some where never touched by my ex-fiance, Bottom line, a fresh start.
For I'd be lying to you all if I was to tell you that all the walls over here have ghosts in them, the ghosts of memories, which as of recent have been screaming at me. So next week all I have to do is provide the rental office with a 30 day notice to leave, rental staff told me they'd handle the rest.
It just feels so foreign and odd to me, for once upon a time I had someone in my life to share good news with. For my ex-fiance and I had talked for months about moving, this process that I've started was something that she wanted to participate in, and be apart of it. Just feels real sad that she's no longer here, to see one of her "wants" to come true!
But I guess it's my life now, as much as it pains me and freaks me out to say, I guess I'll just have to move along and enjoy wishes once made. I just have to get out of here, I've lived in the same unit for close to 19 years, these walls have seen a 14 year marriage, they saw it's divorce, they saw me be alone for the better part of 5 years, then they saw my ex-fiance move, they saw her living here, they saw the memories made, and in the end they saw her leave. To much for me to handle, I'm glad to have been given the "green light" to work on getting out of here.
Why is this good news, since my -ex-fiance has left me, I've been trying my best to get the hell out of this apartment and be allowed to move else where. Some where, where there will be no memories, some where never shared with anyone else, some where never touched by my ex-fiance, Bottom line, a fresh start.
For I'd be lying to you all if I was to tell you that all the walls over here have ghosts in them, the ghosts of memories, which as of recent have been screaming at me. So next week all I have to do is provide the rental office with a 30 day notice to leave, rental staff told me they'd handle the rest.
It just feels so foreign and odd to me, for once upon a time I had someone in my life to share good news with. For my ex-fiance and I had talked for months about moving, this process that I've started was something that she wanted to participate in, and be apart of it. Just feels real sad that she's no longer here, to see one of her "wants" to come true!
But I guess it's my life now, as much as it pains me and freaks me out to say, I guess I'll just have to move along and enjoy wishes once made. I just have to get out of here, I've lived in the same unit for close to 19 years, these walls have seen a 14 year marriage, they saw it's divorce, they saw me be alone for the better part of 5 years, then they saw my ex-fiance move, they saw her living here, they saw the memories made, and in the end they saw her leave. To much for me to handle, I'm glad to have been given the "green light" to work on getting out of here.
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Yay! Glad you are going to get a fresh start. I understand wanting to have someone to share good news with. I feel the same way. I have nobody to share things with.