Optimistic

I feel a bit more optmistic so far without an incident, I feel a bit closer to God as well in shame I would not be able to deal with spirituality, He has always been there even when I screwed  up million times its about time i give back to him and go on a path of being good. It still long journey and I have a lot of stuff to focus on to actually get where I need to be. Making this my full job and I know I can do better and recover if I keep it up still slow progress but it is better than doing nothing and hurting other people. This is the bests thing for me and everyone, praying is what gets me through the day and I would not make it even a week without the help from him.