Opposites

She's trying really hard to come back into my life...as what, I have no idea. She dreams up issues, anything out of the blue to push a button - - Oh yea, she know's the button's to push.  Lightening is the opposite of darkness.... I am so hoping for a thunderstorm soon.... I see her patterened sequence of events surrounding us, attracting my attention, inviting my personal involvement. I accept this as a given, trying to attune myself to the rhythm of ordered flow. It's just no use, there is no place in my life for her any longer. She shuts me down as I am augmenting my personal growth and she ditches my notions of happiness - - she pushes aside my contributions, which are needed by us both in this sequence of events. I do not understand the full picture of the pattern we're each woven into. I can only trust that it's design will comfort - - if not today, then tomorrow. I chose to be alone, to grow and eventually flourish - - she is my rose thorn and I her doormat. I have come and gone at will - - she has never known.  She completes, then breaks me, selfish and unaware of coming full circle.  I soooo want to go forward today--sure that events will move me in the right direction even though I can't see what's around the corner. There will be no unplanned event in the big picture......