Opposites
She's trying really hard to come back into my life...as what, I have no idea. She dreams up issues, anything out of the blue to push a button - - Oh yea, she know's the button's to push. Lightening is the opposite of darkness.... I am so hoping for a thunderstorm soon.... I see her patterened sequence of events surrounding us, attracting my attention, inviting my personal involvement. I accept this as a given, trying to attune myself to the rhythm of ordered flow. It's just no use, there is no place in my life for her any longer. She shuts me down as I am augmenting my personal growth and she ditches my notions of happiness - - she pushes aside my contributions, which are needed by us both in this sequence of events. I do not understand the full picture of the pattern we're each woven into. I can only trust that it's design will comfort - - if not today, then tomorrow. I chose to be alone, to grow and eventually flourish - - she is my rose thorn and I her doormat. I have come and gone at will - - she has never known. She completes, then breaks me, selfish and unaware of coming full circle. I soooo want to go forward today--sure that events will move me in the right direction even though I can't see what's around the corner. There will be no unplanned event in the big picture......
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Just read your journal entry. Women play games. They want you, they don\'t. Its their nature. She is trying for your attention and you are at a different point in your life. You came down a path together but somewhere one went one way and other one went the other way. We cant go although at times it seems to be the easiest thing to do. The party is over. Continue to move forward with your plans-let her play the games. XXX
Huge grammar error. We can\'t go back, although. Sorry
The pattern that our lives wove with another sometimes just come to the end. I have also found this. His threads will always be there in the tapestry of my world. He was there for so many reasons. But our journey ended. Your stbx has come to see that she made a mistake in her life. She now wants you to be that same person she could manipulate before. She is lost and trying anyway to get back into the security of your life. You have come so far in your journey of discovering yourself. You have learned how to listen to your inner voice, to choose the path you want to take. You are weaving a wonderful new life, you will find joy and peace......Big hugs playmate..
I\'m sorry she is trying to manipulate her way back into your life. You\'ve come so far in your healing. Isn\'t it funny that when we finally find a place of peace, the stbx\'s/ex\'s find a way to come back into our lives. It\'s like they have a sixth sense or something.
Continue on your journey. Leave her behind. Hugs my friend.
Meddle first. Anyone who truly cares about you will respect you and honor that.
Hugs hun.
Meddle Dear, that is SO swell. Heart of a poet in this guy. As one of our friends says above, amazing the way our healing hearts attract the lightning rod that is their capricious interest. I hear you strong and aware and unavailable to be had in anything like the same way again. Buckets of love to you, and my heartfelt sympathy to silly Her, who foolishly lost a great one. Stay strong and hug that wondrous kitty for me.
You dear friends certainly know how to make a fella feel *real*. Thanks you all and a group hug..... :D
I\'m seconding what boyd said: She foolishly lost a great one. Hang in there, dear meddle. An inner spirit as peaceful as your river will soon prevail in your heart.
I\'m sorry she\'s doing this to you. Stay strong and focused....it\'s meddle time. To her, you\'re the sweet man that got away :)
I agree with the others Mark , you will always be the one that got away.. The heart of a poet, impeccable musical tastes =D not to mention a keen eye for good TV..
You are a beautiful person, she may not know what she wants, but I do believe in her heart she knows what shes lost.. Hang in there and hold your head high... GHI tonight!!!
Poetic, amazing, strong, kind....you are the light. Trim the thorns from the beautiful rose that is your heart. You will flourish and you are designed for greatness. Keep trekking because your summit is withing reach. Don\'t pay attention to her actions and close that door to where she clearly understands that the doormat has been replaced to say \'welcome everyone but you\'....YOU exude magnificence in my not so humble opinion!
sorry for the typo! Replace withing to \'within\'...I must learn to edit before hitting the add comment!
You have such a wonderful way of writing about someone that has once come and is now gone. If only she could understand. (((MK)):)
That sniffing back around thing is so draining, in my experience. Something makes me want to encourage you to guard your heart, but that may be off, I don\'t know.
You are so valuable. The only wave you need to ride is your own.
Where *did* the thunderstorms go? If you all aren\'t having enough 5-star storms in July, something is amiss. If the storm just won\'t break, maybe go jump in the water? Just a thought.
((((((((((((((mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeddle))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))