Opening a new chapter...
I guess you could say I am opening a new chapter in my life. I had even moved states after my ex broke up with me and I had no supporting family near by. It has been one tough ride. I really don't want to get into much detail about how things went down because I am not in the mood to rehash it. At this moment I just wanted to give an update to my life.
I am truly starting over with little left to my name. I am in a new home with my aunt and uncle. It is strange to go from having your own place to just having a bedroom. It saddens me at times to see the remainders of the old chapter of my life scattered in the basement as I try to organize things, since I had to pack in such a disorganized manner. Another difficulty here is feeling lonesome at times until I can get my life going again and be able to meet new people. I think feeling lonely at times deff sux, but I know it will only be temporary.
Its funny how life changes in a blink of an eye. Never fully lived that saying until now. I also will always live in the moment as much as I can because that is another painful lesson I learned. I also learned that I want to find someone when they ask me to marry them means it and doesnt do this! That is a different story though..
I am truly starting over with little left to my name. I am in a new home with my aunt and uncle. It is strange to go from having your own place to just having a bedroom. It saddens me at times to see the remainders of the old chapter of my life scattered in the basement as I try to organize things, since I had to pack in such a disorganized manner. Another difficulty here is feeling lonesome at times until I can get my life going again and be able to meet new people. I think feeling lonely at times deff sux, but I know it will only be temporary.
Its funny how life changes in a blink of an eye. Never fully lived that saying until now. I also will always live in the moment as much as I can because that is another painful lesson I learned. I also learned that I want to find someone when they ask me to marry them means it and doesnt do this! That is a different story though..
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Hugs dear friend I know its been a while since we have talked but I can relate to what you are going through. I had to move back to just a bedroom too. It does get lonesome at times. You will find someone who loves you for you and who will treat you better. Hugs
Great attitude to live byliving in the moment and taking in those precious pleasant moments, like a warm spring day, while the songbirds are singing. They better bring their snowshoes this season! You sound battered, but NOT broken. Your world as you once knew it, has been shattered apart and youre going with the flow. Beyond the loneliness, you have gained a new freedom and in the long run avoided a lot of heartache and agony over an inevitable divorce. I almost went down that trail, until I saw the dark side that had previously alienated the rest of her family, when things dont go her way. Now it all started making sense. She broke it off suddenly, moved her first load of stuff out two days later, ironically the eve of July 4.
Take this time to make peace within your soul/being and enjoy the solitude, the rest you might need as the put your life back together, rediscover who you are and what direction you want to go in. Peace and hugs to you! ~D
During our times of emotional upheaval, its important to bounce feelings and thoughts off on another trusted person, who can objectively act as a voice of reason, giving you a rough yardstick to reflect upon. We may not always like what we hear, but its probably the reality, although everyone is subconsciously influenced by their own bias and background and will perceive things quite differently, so in those cases, follow your gut/intuition as your final guide.
I know it feels like the end right now. Dark, broken hearted, adjusting to culture shock of moving and being in different surroundings........but you are strong. You are a warrior woman about to start a new chapter. Hugs. Now cry and then get up, wipe away your tears and be ready to take on whatever this new chapter gives you. You truly can change and start over and be a new happy you. There is love in store for you, there is greatness ahead of you. What do you want? Do you have a job? What about school? There is so much you can do and so much hope for you. Big hugs..You can do this!! I haven\'t talked to you in a while, but it hurts me to see that your life is struggling. The struggle doesn\'t have to be forever. You are more powerful than you know and you have greatness inside of you. Pain is required for growth. You are not alone my friend.