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guess kinda lost it today. havent seen her in a week. so was quiet today cause guess im trying distance myself so she says why so quiet. umm hello i said i miss u so she says i actuallly miss u too. went back forth said she wanted come over. she then made comment about me contacting her on a dating site so i got pissed cause she is on there but guess what i am too. so why am i mad. she said she just on there to find friends someone to hang with on her days off. so i said guess im not good enough to hang with like a child. so she got pissed and said forget it just wanted someone during the days. and i said bullshit you havent wanted see me for weeks so of course i feel this way. so now she not talking so i finally blew up said i have every right to be upset sick of making pretend i dont miss her and im not said cause guess what i am. so the child is not speaking to me now cause god forbid we discuss our feelings. i said im jealous which hello i am. she dont want me and i need to come to terms with this cause its effecting my whole world.