Only time can tell

Life is so funny. I keep looking for answers to questions that only God knows. I have not really been listening all that carefully. Today I went to church because it would have been my brother's wedding aniversary plus it is 2 years and one month since he has been gone. The priest's homily was good. It was about being on the offensive against hell then on the defensive. That we with God need to push through the gates of hell and come out the other side. I guess I need to see things differently. Letting my emotions and jealousy get the better of me when I see happy families is like letting the gates keep me in. I have to push my enemy out of my way and move on.I called the adoption agency today but no one answered the phone so I left a message. Hopefully they will get back to us today. Tomorrow I will go for another blood test to see what is happening with my levels. I re-booked my acuputure appointment because my mother booked me for a massage on the same day and time. Somehow someway our family will grow...we have a lot of love to share and God will help us with that. I am on the offensive....I am going to be active and happy.