Ongoing

Life is ok today...it is always comforting to know that I can come here and talk about things.  I've been keeping myself very busy this summer.  Friends, family etc.  I know that he will always be in my heart and I will always love him.  I thought about that last night.  For the first time, I looked at some of the cards that he had given me in the past and how beautiful they were.  I think he probably thought that we would be together forever as well...unfortunately, he didn't cherish that.  And I couldn't continue on in a relationship of deceit...there were 3 people in our relationship...him, me and many other women.  I feel sorry for whoever is the next victim because I'm one of many as well.  But not for me to worry about..... It makes me angry that the love that we built together and what I brought to his life is over.  Someone else is going to benefit from the pain and energy that I went through.  His next move is going to be to buy a home and I know that he does not want to be alone or maybe in the end, he really does?  So that person will be able to share with him what I thought was going to be "us". In the meantime, I'm in the "meantime".  I have decided that I am going to enjoy my summer and take in all that I can.  I met someone online...nice person.  Digging him a little and enjoying the time that we do spend together.  So we'll see where it takes us.... They say that time heals all wounds...