One year one month and nine days

Another spring without you, my love. Missing you, is such an under statement. I'm trying to live with out you, but it's been quite a struggle. I wonder how long a person can fake happiness. I guess it's like the saying, "fake it until you make it". Make what, I wonder. No. I know.
I want to be hugged. I want you to push on that spot of my back when it hurts. I want to spoil you some more. I'm still figuring out what to do with me. Getting my dog (Amigo) has been a huge blessing for me and my cat. My thoughts are still all over the place, but now I can sift through them and let go of the confusion. I'm learning more about people and empty promises... as well as heart felt sympathy. It's amazing how much love was shared in us, and how wonderful it felt to have you in my life and soul. I don't know what God's plan is for me, I just hope I'm on the right(eous) path, and serving Him well and honestly.
I do wonder if you can see me. If you can, know that my love for you has not diminished, and it never will.
My love always, Kim