One-Year Anniversary

Today marks the one year anniversary of the rape, and I am having a difficult time.  Earlier today I was angry and projecting my anger out on everyone around me, and now I am sad.  I just started to cry in the middle of writing this sentence for a few minutes.  I hate how I feel, but I know it is normal.  I am trying not to dwell on it, but the pain is so surreal.  It will be nice to get away tonight to one of my friends' place because I need better memories than what happened a last year.  We are probably going to watch a movie, eat, clean, or whatever needs to be done, I guess, basically have a girls night out.  I need it. It will be nice to go to Manhattan, KS for an opportunity to attend a Theology Conference this weekend on Friday and Saturday; however, I am taking one extra day to myself to spend time with those I love, and to do homework too, or I will get majorly behind.  I just need to get away.  Know what I mean? I am practically working all day tomorrow, at the church with a split shift, and then for babysitting too.  I plan on packing up afterwards, but I sure hope I can get a lot done. I will let you know how everything goes.  Thankfully my papers for school are due by next Wednesday.  Praise God for that.  There is also a possibility for having a regular second job in my field working at Perfect Peace Christian Stores, so the CNA job will probably end up being once a week or once a month at that point, if that should be the case. Please continue to be in prayer for my recovery, and for the second job in my field.  Thank you.