one third of my life gone

October 1993, have to look up exact date, for monkey feet, monk, monkey, monk the cat, to be born under my bed.
 
All the promises I didn't keep, "if only monk would get well"---I ripped up one of them from 2010, a few minutes ago.  I promised I'd do something better with my life---and I couldnt
 
Entering some new depression phase from yesterday, with before and after he gone different phases.
 
Crying at 730 in morning----monk would crawl over me, wake me up, to eat.
 
Wearing a shirt in my apt now, cause heat down; had heat up for him.
 
All the wonderful people on this site for me to take 4ever to get back to.
 
20 years out of my 55---gone.
 
don't know how I'm gonna get to walmart tomorrow, on my bike; just gotta return camera I bought just day before he was gone, with me gone to get camera while he in hiding, from being worse
 
posted photos of monk yesterday, though this morning I couldn't look any that were leftover from scanning.