One steady step at a time.

I thought since I had a few moments I would get in an over due journal update…This is the week it all happens. I am for the most part finished packing and tomorrow my containers come. Wednesday the movers come to help me move all my stuff into them. Thursday I get the rental car. Friday I leave very early in the morning to drive over 2,000 miles or 20 hours back to Ohio to start my new life. It has been raining like crazy here. So much so that our neighborhood started to flood as did our property. I am a bit nervous about the containers coming because the area that is most level that I want them to set them is on grass. The grass is soggy and muddy. I fear that the containers might get stuck once I get all my junk into them. I guess we shall see. So far with this my anxiety is there but no panic attacks. I am just focused on getting through this and getting to Ohio. I am slightly worried about my sleep schedule but I am not going to dwell. I will sleep when I sleep and just hope that’s enough. My house should be ready by the time I am in Ohio. I told my dad that if it wasn’t I could help. Also, I hold him just clean up a corner for me to sleep in and I am good to go. I know I am going to need quiet. My dad keeps telling me not to take too much on at once. He told me I need to take a few months and work things out so it doesn’t come back to bite me. I told him I will take a month to unpack and organize but during that time I am putting in applications. I stopped thinking of what a failure I am….and I am just trying to focus on the here and now so I can have a bright future. One steady step at a time….I hope you all are well. ~Bright Blessings~Rea