One more day gone by

Here is another post, my body clock says that it is around 9 o'clock right now, which would mean that I'm in Mexico somewhere. Once again real people time disagrees with me and tells me that I am up at 3 a.m. Can't sleep though. This kind of sucks.    Anyway this is just a general post and isn't to say anything big, just to move things along a bit and to tire me out so that I can perhaps sleep a little more than last night (1 hour). So right now I'm listening to some music. Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects, and Don't Let The Man Get You Down - Fatboy Slim. The fatboy slim song is to do with racism, well the video is and the only lyric 'And the sign said long-haired, freaky-people need not apply' seems to apply to this. I've also decided that the greatest single concentration of social ignorance has condensed onto the comment areas of YouTube because some of what people say is really dumb. I tried to think of something to say that was so stupid that people would realise that it was a joke. I failed. Anyway onto the All American Rejects. The chorus is 'I'll give you my dirty little secret. Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret. Who has to know.' Anyway sorry to go into an analysis of this but you are reading this so you must care about what I have to say. Anyway I have a lot of dirty little secrets, some funny, some not so, and some really really dark and all of them chase me in the darkest corners of my mind at the darkest times. Also I would like to pride myself on fidelity because I would not tell a person's secrets unless there was a real need to or if it was easy to tell and wasn't really a secret in the first place. Finally I think to what the undertone of this and that is the concept of trust which belies the surface and this bears relevance to me because of recent events. I feel that my trust has been breached by the people that I thought I could trust. I feel that I haven't recieved the understanding that I gave to others at their crisis points and I feel like I was never listened to. That is what I feel and nothing can shake that.    Anyway after all this I guess that I should say it doesn't phase me too much right now 'cus I feel good and nothing can break this good vibe o' mine.    Sayonara